Someday, I'll meet that someone who will hold me in his arms and whisper into my ear: "Baby you are the only one that matters.."



Sometimes.. I do wonder if I'm just good at nothing, or good for nothing...



Today used to be so special...





You are indeed an absolute cutie. I miss your smile, your voice, the way you look me in my eyes. I miss your everything. I love how you sneak a hug on me, how you surprise me with a kiss, how you hold my hands when I least expects. I wonder if I'm still running through your heart and mind, I wonder if you still think of the many moments we spent together.

I feel happy, but it still hurts to see your photos. I am moving on. I am doing better than I expect myself to. I hope that things are fine for you too.



对未来和幸福的憧憬被毁灭在这一瞬间。原来单方面的幸福是不存在的。人的感情很脆弱，来得快，去得快。我相信我们还是可以变回像以往一样，无所不谈的好朋友。希望没有我，你会更快乐。



It will get tougher, and tougher.. Complacency kills. Even when everything seems nice and fine, choice of topic, words, body language, everything matters.

Love, simply a feeling?
Mutual feelings will only bring you so far, differences will drift you apart from happiness.



糟，心情很糟。
不知道是因为生理期还是自己在找借口，总之感觉很不对。
一股无故的低潮涌入我的心中。
不知明的泪水溢出我的眼角。
我似乎希望你明白，但也不知要你明白什么。

矛盾，语无伦次。
只想找个地方抒发情感吧...



In the Summer of 2012, I'm back to this little space of mine. A piece of the virtual reality world which I can claim as mine. I have actually planned to start blogging again since last Summer, but I guess procrastination can hit anyone. Its quite a pleasant surprise that I can still access to this website. The email address that I registered this blog for was hacked earlier, and I have no control over it anymore. Nonetheless, I'm still glad.

I am here to share a story of a close friend of mine....

She has been in this relationship for quite a while. Not her first boyfriend, but she definitely wants him to be his last. All has been well, oter than little spats once in a while and I have to admit he and she were the loveliest couple I have seen. Sending snacks to lectures, hand-made birthday cards, sacrificing his personal time for her, etc. She was his world. But lately, Mr and Mrs Perfect Couple broke up over another one of their little conflict raised by her. Not much details were given, but it was a trivial matter according to her. He was determined about this decision no mater how she begged, cried or plead. It turns out that he has been tolerating her inconsistent temper and her stubborn personality, along with new faults he find in her. She was devastated, turns out that he is her world too, and her bestfriend. But there was no way she can salvage this mess...

Love is marvelous, wonderful, amazing.
Loving is best feeling ever. 
Loved marks the end of a new beginning.    

Cheer up my dear. Its not the end.



On the first day of this new decade, I have some thoughts to pen down. In the order of appearence in my life, my love(d) ones..you guys are all part of me and those whom shaped me to who I am today.

FAMILY.
The basic unit of everything. Mom, Dad, Korkors, Da-sao. Always there, always care. Dad and Mom, I am a pampered kid of yours. Not exactly the perfect daughter, but you guys are the perfect parents. Supporting me thru this costly decision I've made in 2010. You guys supported me despite not fully comprehending the reasons for the decision. Both of you trusted me fully with my abilities to take good care of myself. Always trying your best to give us the best without asking for anything in return.


MY LOVELY GFs - CLIQUE.
An awesome group of girls whom I met in the SWISS community. A group of unique individuals who came together and made one another's lives more beautiful. The group of girls who grew up with me, who gave me the most influence. We are not related by any blood ties. It was fate that brought us together. We have different ways of leading our lives, goals, aspirations and personalities, but it was these differences which made us pieced together like many little puzzle pieces into a beautiful potrait.



MEHMEH.
You know who you are. We were both still young and we could't handle relationships properly. you gave me love, but you just weren't the one. But the one thing which I learnt from you -fairytales do not exists in reality.



HK.
Your love was unconditional. You helped me in every way you could. You pampered me to the extend that you spoit me. You gave in to everything in order not to hurt me. I've let you down. I destroyed our dreams and our future. I loved you, but I hurted you deeply in the end. I couldn't face you since then, I even have difficulties looking at your picture. I always want to find out whether you are doing well to make myself feel better, after causing those damages. I'm sorry.



PeeJay - The "LADIES".
Yes, you are included in us, this group of ladies. We do crazy things together: Wrting notes to one another in class when we are just one seat apart. Going for half hour toilet breaks during GP classes. Always try to clear our bowels together. Stalking eye candies in school. Graduation still seems so yesterday..awesome days we had in peejay.



PP.
Your love was too much for me. The short relationship we had make me realise that we are really not meant to be. The scene of that faithful day still flashes through my mind once in a while. I could still feel your anger. Hope everything's well for you.



AURUM.
A crazy bunch of people whom made me succumb to alcoholism. Kinda like to hang out with them as we always do crazy things that are out of the box. A very fun bunch to be with, not to mention that we always get together to play badminton, which is like the second love of my life.



SIMPSONS.
First batch of friends in NTU. They made the Orientation so enjoyable and fun! Especially the Simpsons seniors who guided us along the way. Attending classes with them made the mundane lectures/tutorials more interesting.



PROJECT INSPIRON II TEAM.
A meaningful OCIP in Cambodia. An experience of a lifetime. A bunch of nice people met during the trip. What more could I ask for?



CERES.
First time attending a camp as a GL and I met this group of interesting freshies. Ceres seniors are awesomest!



Sam.
A very special someone whom I had a pretty bad first impression of. Funny how twisted things became. Your confidence attracted me to you like bees to honey. Things always turn out well with you around... I hope we could spend the rest of our lives together appreciating the presence of each other..

Happy 2011!:)



Ever since exams are over, I've been leading a carefree lifestyle. Sleeping at wee hours, and waking up just in time for brunch. Drowning myself in drama series and the all-so-boring Facebook. I'm getting kinda sick of it. Ocassional trips to school for YEP/FOC meeting. Blood-boiling sessions with adorable-cum-annoying tuition kids. Sweat-shedding weekend Badminton matches. Never-tired-of-it gathering trips.

Just signed treaty of peace with Mama after 2 weeks of cold war. This made me very firm on my decision to shift to hall(if possible) next sem..(friends please help!!!) Never sure of when Mama's menstrual cycle/menopause will endanger family peace, so prevention is beter than cure.

I would describe the current situation of my relationship with Samuel to a rollar-coaster ride(Family coaster). The usually high and lows, but not those horrifying kind to make us scream and yell over. It's probably human nature I guess, to get sick of people when interaction frequents(however attractive he/she is). And the tendency of prioritising surface when equally important agents comes into the picture. Changes are unavoidable, and honeymoon periods will definitely come to an end. Right sweetie? Whoever that says distance is not a problem, apparently it is. 26.3km is definitely too much for us to take...

No pictures avaliable as poor girl, KhaiTing is still saving for her IXUS. Any kind souls?